On Poyoness of a Mother to be

Braxton hicks my dear has been constant.

Tapi i buat dek.

But not today.  Today macam a bit more than usual.  I baru 8 bulan.

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But because of poyoness I went to emergency today just to make sure. had ctg. true enuf no contraction. doctor wanted to give me medical leave to rest. i said no. why? work will worry me. why mc when it will haunt you? but will see the doctor again this weekend for another round of ctg and check up.

My only assumption.  work is pilling up.  rezeki. alhamdullillah.  im stress. carry the burden all alone. frustrated with inefficiency of certain persons yang menyebabkan kita tidak keruan. but if i dont work apa nak buat 8 hours a day ye tak?

how to handle BH?

rest. drink lots. baring mengiring ke tepi kiri. selawat. breathe. laugh!

On 8 Months and Counting

You know maybe if you read this blog you may think that all I do is whining about my pregnancy.

But in actual fact I love it.  I love being pregnant no matter how challenging it can be.

Yes, kat mana lagi nak complain if not in my own blog right? not all in life are bunga-bunga je kan

I love taking pictures of my tummy from every angle.

I love the feeling when the baby moves.  It makes you feel so alive!

I love seeing Isaac playing with the tummy.  He will treat it with extra care.  You know, he will play “manly” with his papa. Karate sana, karate sini. But whenever he is with me, he will be gentle! Fancy that!  It’s like he has radar or something and will never bump my tummy at all. He will kiss it and talks to the baby.  This I will definitely miss the most nanti.

I love seeing how nothing is swollen. My nose still looking like I am not pregnant at all, my feet look normal. The only thing that is obvious is the tummy growing very big and round plus a few ounces of lemak here and there, which is normal kan?



at 8 months

So far, I have gained 8kg. I am 63kg now at 8 months. 

I will definately miss being pregnant!Pregnancy rocks no matter how much I complain!

On Making Me MELT

Oh the other day I was mad with Isaac (seperti biasa, what is new?)

So I told him “Isaac! I already told you not to do it right? I am not happy you know!”

He asked “mama you mad? You angry with me?”

I said “yes!”

Then I left him. When I came back, I saw him doing something that melt my heart!

You know what he did?

Dia berdoa! Baca surah Al-Falaq!!!!!!! Not the whole surah lah but the last parts siap dengan qalqalah!

So I asked him “Isaac are you praying?”

“I made a mistake and I’m sorry”

Ya ALLAH! I feel so bad!!!!!

im sorry baby

On OCD

I have a serious problem.

I want my house to be really clean. I mean it.

If I ask my helper to clean the dining table (not after a meal, this is like once in a blue moon request), I will mean the whole table. Not just the surface.  I mean all the nook and crannies. If I found any spider web or things underneath that I don’t like I will be sweating in anger.

If I see spider web or tahi cicak, on furniture, on the floor, on the wall or on the ceiling, I will be palpitating until I can get my hands on it.

The other day I found one big cockroach on the bed.  I beg hubby to send everything including the comforter to the washer save of course for the mattress and bed frame.  It was 1 hour to midnight!

I insist to wash laundry. I will fold clean clothes myself. The other day while folding clothes that helper helped to wash, it was not up to my standard, I told her to wash that big basket full of clothes again and its already 9.30pm! Freak I am.

Well in my defense, it reeked sweat and she didn’t add the softener sebab penyakit “M”. But in the end because of kesian, I told her to wash it in the morning.

I don’t like animals in my house, especially animals with furs like cats. Fish I can tolerate.  This is not really in Mr B’s happy list. Mr B and Isaac love animals though.

Everything must be organized. Be at its place and in order. Kalau boleh I nak colour coordinated. Tapi melampau.

Now with a new baby coming, I am beyond nesting. I am having OCD.

I want baby arrives to a beautiful home. Beautiful in my definition is clean.

I am shivering and biting my fingers curling up in a corner now looking at my ceiling; the ceiling is stained due to leak. Geramnya. Pakal je nak delivery soon Mr B wants to wait until the baby comes. Gigil!

On Myth About Pantang

Of course you have heard of this before:

“bestnya dapat cuti 2 bulan nanti. At least you cuti lama” selalunya daripada guys.

Kepala anda berjambul?

Selama 9 bulan we women akan melalui so many perubahan

• Extreme changes to our body
• Hormonal changes
• Cannot breathe, walk and sleep
• Morning sickness
• RLP in my case, walaupun ada bagi alasan alah baby terselitlah, pergi urut lah, rasa dulu baru mengata boleh?
• Braxton Hicks
• The contractions
• The delivery itself
• Perineal tear and the jahitan!

And we had to work some more especially during first trimester if you suffering morning sickness and paling menduga kesabaran dan challenging, during the third trimester where everything is no longer easier! and those who already have children and suami poyo  macam yang bagi komen mengarut seperti atas, kena jaga anak dan suami poyo mereka.

Dalam keadaan yang tidak menentu, we women dengan jayanya melaluinya.  

Ni baru kena sunat sikit macam dunia ni nak kiamat. Poyos.

2 bulan tersebut bukan kami bercuti wahai sang lelaki. Kami kena jaga anak yang kami baru lahirkan dengan susah payah. Kami kena jaga diri kami supaya kembali ke asal. Confined! Hence Confinement! 

I pelik lelaki yang macam ni. Tiada isteri kah?

Or isteri mereka superwoman? Or terpaksa menjadi superwoman kerana suami maha pemalas dan tidak sensitif?

I pernah diminta oleh seorang lelaki (bukan suami I yang memang proven hebat tu) untuk mengangkat beg nya kerana dia nak pergi Friday prayers. Hello? Anda blind? I am heavily pregnant and I am to carry your bag? Macam mana dia layan isterinya? Hmmm…

Apa-apa pun, despite everything above, having a child is the most beautiful thing any woman could ever had. And believe me when we say, we do not mind to endure it again.

On Round Ligament Pain

Susah nak terangkan if you have never experience it before.

I cant put my finger on the pain that I have been having. Doctor said it is because baby is pushing.

I do not know how to describe it but I will rasa macam being stab at/being poke at below my abdomen around the bikini line.

When it came, berserah je. Sometimes it attack just one side. But unfortunately sometimes it attacks both sides.

Screaming will not help.

Neither do crying.

It is called Round Ligament Pain.

Imagine if you feel strecthing (yup the mengeras thingy) and RLP at the same time? Not comfortable.

Rasa nak sepak orang je.

Isaac will go to my tummy and says “baby, dont kick mama okay, okay...”

Sometimes he will add innocently “baby! Dont kick mama! I kick you!” especially if he sees me squinting in pain and crying. Of course I will tell him "eh no kicking baby. baby needs to move lah sayang"

Why it happen? Dont know but it will come if you do something active like walking, getting out of bed/chair/something, rolling over in bed and coughing etc.

What can I do to relieve it? No ubat. Just relax. Relax. Relax. Take a warm bath. And of course berdoa. And cut back on the activity. Like that susahlah kan? Baring tak boleh, duduk tak boleh, jalan tak boleh. Apa boleh? Buat dunno bleh?

Oh by the way welcome back braxton hicks. It has been 3 years and 10 months ago since we last meet.

Segala puji bagi Allah yang memberikan kesakitan dan yang menyembuhkan.

Sesungguhnya setiap kita akan diuji untuk melihat siapa di antara kita yang lebih baik amalannya”

This is my bahagian. And I terima dengan rela hati. Maybe this will lessen my sins? hopefully...amin

On Baby Prep

Bestkan dapat shopping without rasa guilty.

Baby no. 2 prep has been easy. Alhamdullillah.

Baby Moon

During the CNY long holidays, we didn’t go anywhere. I can’t travel anymore. 

So we chose to have our 3^rd baby moon around JB.  Stayed at a hotel for 2 days 1 night je and of course Isaac tags along. Had a great rest.

Ransacking the Store

Then the rest of the holidays, we ransacked our store to gather all Isaac’s old stuffs. 

Especially his old gadgets like

• sterilizers for home and travelling
• infant car seat
• stroller
• playpen
• baby monitor
• receiving blankets
• baby binders and all
• old white baby baju

Sedih bila tengok all Isaac’s white bajus are stained. Kenalah hantar dobi.

We recycle apa yang boleh recycle.  Alhamdullilah barang Isaac mostly macam baru.

I am so hooked at organizing things.  Semuanya nak organize. I rasa baby ni akan suka organize barang.

Bila tengok all Isaac’s old stuffs terus emotional. Drama. Sedih woo.

Few items we bought for baby no 2 in a span of 4 months are

• breastpumps
• disposable breast pads
• new wardrobe cabinet for baby
• chest freezer for ebm
• feeding bottles
• gadgets like storage, fridge to go for ebms
• new mattress
• snuzzler
• new baby bath tub – isaac’s old one dah pecah
• detergent for baby - only during baby first year and
• baby skin care

Things which we have yet to buy for baby:

• minyak telon – mana nak cari ni...
• new bajus – pinks or blues?
• digital/ear/infra red thermometer – isaac’s one dah nak caput

Other neccesities

• Budget for labour and delivery and bidan.  Alhamdullillah. If only we have maternity benefit, it would be helpful. Like my single younger sis, her company provides maternity benefit
• Bidan is booked
• Recipes for pantang - done
• Traditional bengkungs. It worked for me the first time.  Dulu tak sempat nak cari bengkung, so I had to pinjam. Now I dah cari lebih awal dah. Kain belacu – jawa style. Tinggal potong and jahit je.
• Packing for hospital – for me, Mr B’s overnight bag and baby’s bag.  Isaac needs a bag too for his overnight at my mum’s – just in case.  

We are indeed grateful with all Allah's blessings. Ada rezeki untuk baby no 2.

Eventhough ada rezeki, this time around we try to be frugal.  Semua our hard earned cash so we are really budgetting everything. Budgetting is everything.

Hopefully semuanya dipermudahkan.